Candid Conversation with God

I wanted to share the conversation I had with God before we started homeschooling. It came to me a few times so maybe it’s the Lord’s way of asking me to share, so here we go…

Dear Jesus,

I wanted to discuss this whole homeschooling thing you have called us to. I have a few concerns and would just like to hear from you, you know some kind of confirmation that we should homeschool, that we’re on the right track, because I’m freaking out just a bit. So here’s where I’m at with this whole thing…

1. I’m scared.

The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. (Deut 31;8)

And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age. (Matt 28:20)

2. I’m worried about what other people will think or say.

Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the LORD is kept safe. (Prov 29:25)

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. (Prov 9:10)

Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. (Colossians 3:2)

3. I doubt my own ability to teach my kids effectively.

…for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose. (Philippians 2:13)

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)

4. I don’t think we can afford it.

And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. (2 Corinthians 9:8)

5. How can I take care of my home, family, and daily responsibilities and homeschool?

If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen. (1 Peter 4:11)

And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him. (Colossians 3:17)

6. I’m so overwhelmed, I don’t even know where to start!

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding (Proverbs 3:5)

If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. (James 1:5)

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God (Philippians 4:6)

6. What about my free time?

Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others. (Philippians 2:3)

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. (Matthew 11:28)

7. What if my kids turn out weird and un-socialized?

And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. (Romans 12:2)

8. What if I lose friends or family because they disapprove?

But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. (Philippians 3:1-8)

9. What about my attitude and, um shall we say lack of patience?

Do everything without grumbling or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation”. Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky as you hold firmly to the word of life. And then I will be able to boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor in vain. But even if I am being poured out like a drink offering on the sacrifice and service coming from your faith, I am glad and rejoice with all of you. So you too should be glad and rejoice with me. (Philippians 2:14-18)

Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. (Colossians 3:12)

…for the wrath of man does not produce the righteousness of God. (James 1:20)

10. Um, so are you saying I’m going to be tested? Because we all know how that turns out…

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. (James 1:2-3)

And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us. (Romans 1:3-5)

10. What if I can’t hack it? I mean it’s always easier said then done!

…And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. (Hebrews 12: 1-3)

11. How am I to teach, I don’t even have a teaching degree?

These commandments that I give you today are to be on your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates. (Deut 6-9)

12. Okay, I’m out of excuses, any final advice?

But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. (2 Corinthians 12:9)

He will feed his flock like a shepherd. He will carry the lambs in His arms, holding them close to His heart. He will gently lead the mother sheep with their young. (Isaiah 40:11 NLT)

and thus began our journey…



  1. this is such an encouragement to newbie hoemschooling moms like me.. homeschooling is not as accepted here in the Philippines as it is the USA.. thanks for sharing!

    • Such a good letter allowing God tobajswer by the Bible. By the way As a certified teacher I am trying to do my part to help homeschool parents via my website We even offer video tutoring

  2. Beautiful post! Thank you for sharing.

  3. Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing this. My dream is to be able to homeschool, it hasn't happened…yet. This gives encouragement if I ever reach that goal but it also spoke to me in regards to PARENTING as well. Thanks again.

  4. I just found your blog a couple days ago and I am loving it, especially this post. I am having this conversation now and this was very encouraging. Thank you for sharing!

  5. Thanks for sharing this.It is our second year of homeschooling and I think I have half of those questions any given day!

  6. Wow!!! And Wow again! Thank you for sharing this.

  7. Great Post! I have asked and been asked over and over ALL these questions…That God,He has an answer for eveything :-)

  8. I'm going to print this up and hang it on my wall. Such wonderful encouragement from such a wonderful source. Thanks for the reminders!

  9. I am printing it off too and hanging it up! Thanks so much! Lord bless!

  10. I was happy to see this post this morning. I'm in my first year of homeschooling and look forward every day to read your posts. You are such a blessing and God is really using you. Thank you and God Bless

  11. Thank you for posting this. What an encouragement to have God's encouragement as we face hurdles.All of these items have come to mind, and we have only started preschool.

  12. Thank you, what an encouraging resource to turn to when doubts begin to creep up on me. I know I am called to do this and God will do it through me.

  13. This was amazing! Thank you for taking the time to blog about this!

  14. Amen! He keeps telling me, "My grace is sufficient" too! :)

  15. Awesome!!!! Thank you so much for sharing!!

  16. Thank you for sharing. What a blessing to read today.

  17. Pretty sure God put that on your heart to share with ME today! :) (okay, maybe some others, too) Thank you for the encouragement!

  18. I love this and plan to share it! Thanks for all your hard work!

  19. You are awesome. God has used your encouragement so much in my life. Thank you!

  20. You are awesome. God has used your encouragement so much in my life. Thank you!

  21. LOVE it!!! Amen! The journey never is easy, but with God leading our homeschooling it is easier. Thanks for all of your encouragement on a daily basis. Blessings to you and your family and your schooling.

  22. Thanks so much for sharing. I'm going to pass along your encouragement. Blessings,Rachel :)

  23. LOVE this! :) Thank you.

  24. This is just what I needed today. This is my first year homeschooling. I love your blog. It's very inspiring. Thank you for sharing!

  25. Thank you so much for posting this! It is exactly what I needed to read. I, too, would love to print this off and put it in a prominent place, if you don't mind.Thanks again, and many blessings,~Amanda.

  26. I really needed to hear this today – my oldest is a senior, and we just found out today that there is a deadline for certain scholarships this Wednesday. So today has been a day full of doubts, fears, searching for papers, figuring out grades, making a transcript – argh! It was His perfect timing that at the end of the day, at the end of my rope I read – "His grace is sufficient for me." Thank you.

  27. Wow. I really needed this. I think I might print this out and tape it to my computer/desk/mirror/kitchen sink/car dashboard. :)Thank you!

  28. The scriptures are here for God to speak to us. I believe that God listens to our prayers and can answer in many different ways. I am still in that "prayer" phase of talking to God about homeschool. I don't know if I was called to homeschool or that I just wanted to reeeeeallly badly and asking for his strength and guidance daily. Homeschooling is and will be my choice and I want/need input from God.

  29. Thank you so very much!

  30. I am in my 3rd year of homeschooling and I still have these kinds of questions sometimes. I have to admit It was nice hearing this from you. I have been a bit intimidated by you since I found your site. I know that sounds silly, but looking at your amazing pictures makes me feel a bit inadequate as a homeschooler. Comparing is one of my flaws that I'm working on :-)Thank you for posting and reminding me that everyone is human!

  31. I loved reading your conversation with God…I see that your transparentcy opened the doors of His grace…"God gives grace to the humble".This was meat. I am encouraged in my own journey.thank you

  32. What an amazing post and some many of these scriptures I needed to hear to help me break my fears of homeschooling.

  33. This was so encouraging when I received it in my email this morning. I read it and re-read it again while drinking my morning coffee. It's beautiful and I'm going to keep it saved to refer to!Recently I have started a new project in our home-preschool: A Nature Table! I've created some elaborate forests this past weekend!Check it out and let me know what you think, Erica! :)<3 Rockabye Butterfly

  34. Oh, Erica. You have so totally won my heart tonight. This is our first year homeschooling, and I swear I had the same conversation with God as you did!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you for your obedience. Not only to homeschool your children, but to share that very personal conversation you had with God with me.I am going to print that and keep it at my desk. Then, when I start to throw myself a pity party, I will remind myself of God's truths.Thank you!Love wins,A

  35. Thank you so much for sharing this!! I have the same exact fears and am struggling with the same doubts about beginning homeschooling. It is always comforting to be reassured that i am not the only one who is scared and most importantly to be reminded of God's awesomeness and power ! Bria

  36. Um! I SOOO needed to read this right now. I think I'm going to print it out to remind me later. We have a 4 year old and my husband has always been on the homeschooling bandwagon. Me, not so much! Yes, I love to do worksheets with her and fun learning things, but to actually be responsible for ALL her learning and schooling, that scares me. I have had all of these thoughts run through my head and it will be such an encouragement to me when I begin this journey.Thank you so much for your awesome blog!

  37. Thank you, I've been so richly blessed by your blog and this post is just another blessing. ~Kari

  38. Sigh! Thank you so much. This will be printed & hung up in my school room! And maybe on the fridge! And maybe on my bathroom mirror! And maybe taped to my dashboard. THANK YOU!!! You rock!

  39. Thank you so much for these verses! I have been having the same conversation with God the last several months (I'm a little slow in the surrender area). I have a friend who has homeschooled her kids for years and I just shared with her my concerns. She encouraged me in many of the same ways you just did. God has reminded me to let go of my concerns and He will take care of the details. What a blessing that we aren't in charge!

  40. My friend Laura posted a link to this on Facebook. We are in our 8th year of homeschooling, and all of these questions still ring true for us. Thank you for being honest and open about your questions and doubts. Praise God for providing all of the answers in His Word! He will continue to remind you of His promises and show Himself faithful through your homeschooling journey!

  41. There are no words that would express what this blog just meant to me. I am trying to decide if homeschooling is the route we should take. We have seven children, 10yrs and under, and I have all of these fears. Thank you for for reminding me of these Truths. Wow, I am going to print this and keep reading it over and over!

  42. wow…beautiful

  43. Just yesterday I told my hubby i couldn't do this (homeschool) anymore. Thank you so much for sharing this. You are a real blessing to me.

  44. Thanks for posting this. We are going to start homeschooling this fall with our 4 year old, and this is exactly how I am feeling! So thank you for posting! :)

  45. Wow! Tomorrow is my daughter's last day in public school. We prayed about this…. and I asked God for signs and reassurance. As I was reading this, I was thinking…. hmmm, did I write this? It is like she read my mind and blogged about it! I was almost in tears because I had those same questions and the answers are beautiful! Then, to top it off, I got to the end…… thank you, my name is Erica, too. Thank you for sharing. What a peaceful way to end my day and start homeschooling! You are truly a blessing.

  46. Love how you answer questions with scripture. Great post. Blessings, Debbie

  47. I too am printing this out:-) I just had a baby six mo and this has also been my first yr homeschooling. I have been feeling so frustrated and tired.

  48. Jane Smith says:

    Wow, I had the exact same conversation with God in Jan of 2009 when I felt God prompting me to homeschool. My oldest son was in kindergarten and loving school. My younger 3 were ages 4, 2, and 8 months. I didn’t know how I was going to do it, but my husband & I knew it was what God wanted for our family. I am so glad you opened your heart and shared this conversation! I love how you back every thought with God’s promises. I am going to print it and hang it where I can read it daily. I am so thankful for your blog. I feel like I have a good homeschool support system but reading your blog is like talking to a great friend who just ‘gets it’. I am really looking forward to having your blog to refer to as we start our 2nd year of homeschooling! Thank you so much for using your gifts & sharing them with us! You are a huge blessing to many, many moms!

  49. I have spent the last few months looking at blogs and websites about homeschoolers. I have been a follower of yours for a short time but had not read this till tonight. This was a rough day (1st year – officially Day 16). This was convicting and encouraging. I am allowing impatience and frustration to take hold. Please continue in what you do. It does encourage and help others.

  50. I have tears in my eyes right now…I have so fought God on this issue for all of these reasons. It is more comforting than you know to read that your concerns are EXACTLY what goes through my mind everyday. My son started kindergarten this year at a small church kindergarten. It seems like none of my options are right for him, but homeschooling does seem like the best. Oh, what to do now?

  51. Thank you SO SO much for this blog, it has encouraged me greatly. I have had these same thoughts/prayers going through my head and while I know that it is what God had called me to do for my children, I haven’t had all of these scriptures to back it up. Thank you so much for this! God Bless you!

  52. Thank you so much for posting this. I am overcome with self-doubt about our schooling decisions. I feel so lost. I am praying that as I read this post again, God will press these truths on my heart (because while I know them, I’m just not feeling them) and give me clarity, peace and courage. Thank you for reminding me of who is in control!

  53. Erica, thank you!!!!

    I can’t begin to tell you how timely it was that I read this today – I followed your link from here: … and I’m SO glad I did!!

    I’m recovering from a c-section, after a very difficult pregnancy, and in addition to the baby have three older children aged 7, 5 and 2. I’ve felt so inadequate in recent weeks and months; so exhausted. Today the children were begging to go and see some friends – but as I can’t drive for another 4 weeks this just wasn’t possible. I was so disappointed for them. I was having a real wobble of faith! But reading the Truth in your blog has helped me regain my focus.

    Thanks again! Alison

  54. Thank you for this post. I decided to be a stay at home mom and open my own home daycare. I have the same fears, same questions, same mind-set as I started not knowing how i’ll be able to make ends meet…thanks for the post…I know I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me and that God will make a way!

  55. This is exactly the thoughts I had last year when trying to “reason” with God why I shouldn’t homeschool. I followed through with His desire for our family to homeschool last year and now have started our second year. I can’t say it has been easy but I am trusting God for the strength to continue in His will. Thanks for sharing this!

  56. I am printing this now! God has blessed me with your words. And for this I THANK YOU!

  57. This is so encouraging to me! I am doing some homeschool preschool with my kids – son age 3 (almost 4) and daughter, age 2. I did some with my son last year, too. I get SO worried at the beginning of the year. I don’t why…both my kids knew all their letters (uppercase and lowercase) before turning 2, and my son has been reading for nearly a year. I think it’s the BIG stuff I worry about…like teaching them algebra (already informed my husband I’ll be needing his help with that). I worry about money and time and my abilities (and this is coming from someone who is a former teacher…I taught preschool before having children).

    Anyway, thank your for these encouraging scriptures. I am saving them and will use them to encourage me whenever I start to worry.

  58. This has blessed me. I totally needed this. This is the third year homeschooling my son. It has been a struggle and I was about to give up and send him back to school, although not feeling released from the Lord. I believe the Lord allowed me to find this and I am very thankful you shared. I will be printing this and placing it where I can read again when discouragement comes.
    Again thank you.

  59. you are an inspiration. every single question you asked God, I am asking right now. Sometimes it is so overwhelming. Thank you for being so open and honest.

    God Bless

  60. Just stumbled upon your blog and this post. I certainly needed to read this today. Thank you for all of your reference to scripture. It is so encouraging – and I I have been so discouraged lately and I truly needed to read it. Thanks. -Renee

  61. Oh my gravy. Thank you so much for sharing this. This is just want I needed :)

  62. Erica,

    I cannot thank you enough for these words of wisdom, put together so perfectly. I found your blog last Saturday, and was so inspired, and excited to dive in head first, and now some of the excitement has worn off, and I have had a couple of crazy at home days, and thoughts, of will my boys (4yrs, 3yrs and one due in March) really, be here with me forever every day??? am I really going to sign on as their primary educator? I am not as patient as I need to be to be a homeschool mom. In the end though YES, I want to, and I know it is the best for our family, and I know that the Lord will strengthen, and increase my capacity, and I will learn and grow along the way. I have been and will be coming back daily to draw from your strength, and knowledge. Again thank you for your dedication, and for sharing all your amazing ideas, and resources. You truly are amazing!!!

  63. a friend recommended your site to me. i have found your site very helpful and informative overall. i will be homeschooling my daughter this year, she will be in 2nd grade. we are also moving, so one reason i wanted to homeschool was i didn’t want to be tied to our school district.

    one thing i have found about your site and your heart – for the Lord, is that you’ve been able to put to words what my heart & mind have been saying for awhile now, but didn’t know how to really share it in a good way w/my husband or friends.

    also, we are heading out on a trip to see family in TX, so, i’ve printed some of your pages here to re-read again on the plane to put my own thoughts to paper and to share more concretely with my husband. this way, we both understand one another and, i can really have on paper my prayer to God and good answers for my daughter when she questions me intensely about homeschooling. right now, its been mostly b/c we want to move and that i’ve wanted to include God more into our day and what she is learning, i haven’t gotten very specific w/her yet. i’m sure i will get the “why” questions more often and i will need to give her a better, more concise & age appropriate answer.

    somehow, i stumbled upon “candid conversations w/God” and you have all the same fears i have. thank you so much for writing about it to share. i can truly see that i am not alone at all, even though we haven’t met personally. i can do home school, house, wife, etc plates – b/c of God’s strength. i just didn’t see it before. also, this posts really goes to show me, that i really need to sit down w/God with a more focused heart about homeschooling, my fears and challenges.

    lastly, your site has been filled with some great ideas on how to avoid some common pitfalls of homeschooling. i try to be fairly organized and i can tell that w/o organization, homeschooling would not happen well. so, the organizational tips you provide have saved me some headache time in figuring out how to do certain things or how to set certain things up.

    thanks again for allowing God to use you. your webiste/blog is a ministry of its own.

    blessings on your homeschooling journey.

  64. I just want to say that this blog was right on time! I just started school this week and let’s just say that the enemy has been trying to creep in. These words were exactly what I needed. God is always on time! Thank you so much for sharing. I am going to print this out and refer back to it daily as I go through this homeschool journey! God bless you sis for your faithfulness!

  65. Thank you so much Erica! 3 years later – people are still being encouraged by your obedience to share your thoughts, prayers and concerns! It is very encouraging to know that no matter what our circumstance, trial or day is like, God is there and he is ready and able to meet each and every one of our needs. I’ve been wrestling with quitting my job and homeschooling for some time now and God just wont leave me alone about it! My husband brings up the what about this and what about that? And ususally I have an answer and make my case well! BUt then I turn around and I’m questioning those exact same things. I guess the bottom line is that we could question ourselves to death. We could bring everything to worry about and fret over. We could go on and on with the “What if’s and How do I’s?” But the answer is and will always be, God. That’s how – with God, that’s why – because God said. He is the answer. Thanks for the reminder!

  66. Erica: i can see by the comments that this post has touched many people….and i am one of them! Oh my goodness!!! i just had a conversation with my husband at lunch today saying most of the things you wrote about!!
    We just finalized our decision to home school recently (after praying about it for about a year) and all of a sudden i am filled with doubt, fear and everything you said. The biggest one being not having the approval of people that mean alot to me.
    This is really a blessing to re-read these scriptures and think about this! thank you for sharing!!! xoxo

  67. Crystal Espinoza says:

    Now this post is AMAZING!!! His word really helped me right now :) I feel anymore doubt from here on out is of the enemy & my own mind.

  68. Crystal Espinoza says:

    Is it possible to make a print version of this? Or should I just copy, paste and print?? You should consider making a print version and post 😉

  69. THANK YOU for writing this so many years ago. I’ve been homeschooling for 4 years now and some days, I just don’t feel adequate enough. I’ve toyed with the idea of public school simply because I don’t feel like I’ doing a good enough job and will have 2 schooling next year, with a toddler and a newborn as well. I was feeling overwhelmed and unsure. This post reaffirms to me EXACTLY what I already knew. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

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